After they had dinner they watched t.v until it was late . Nick and Jess eventually feel asleep on the couch murmuring in their sleep how much they wished for someone to love. What they didn't know is that special person may be the one lying right next to them , the one person least expected.
The next morning
Nick and Jess woke up with arms around both each other and they both apologised shyly both blushing. Nick asked Jess what she wanted to eat for breakfast and Jess said she have what Nick is having . Nick and Jess then proceeded to walking into the kitchen and nick asked "Do you want clusters or frosties ?"
Jess said"mmm i think I'll have clusters." Nick handed her the cereal box along with the milk and smiled . Nick smiled and grabbed the box of her once she was done "I am starving food tastes so good right now , so what do you wanna do today ? I was thinking maybe we could go to the beach and surf or something like that."
Jess smiled and said , "yeah I was just thinking the same thing , but I'll have to go to my apartment to get some clothes and my bikini ." Nick smiled evilly and Jess said "Oh no you don't Carter , By the way where is Aaron ?" Nick smirked instead of smiling this time and said "Aaron went to the studio today , so we have the whole day to ourselves ," Nick got up once he was finished eating and started stacking the dish washer , when Jess finished eating she started to help Nick until he said "Guests do not do jobs " Jess frowned and crossed her arms until Nick shooed her out of the kitchen and told her to go get ready .It took Jess a shower and half an hour to get ready , by that time Nick was already showered and dressed too so they proceeded to go out the door and drive to Jess's apartment , where she pick up her bikini and her wallet .They both decided to go to Santa Monica beach .
At Santa Monica beach
"So do you wanna surf , swim or get something to eat ?" asked Nick
"I think i wanna lie down and go to sleep in the sun , why don't you go surf and I will watch you ."Said Jess . Nick agreed on this and Jess was having a great time watching Nick until her ex boyfriend Mike showed up and started calling her a slut and another names , until Nick saw how upset Jess was getting by this guy and he walked over to her carrying the surfboard along with him . "Jess are you ok ?" Nick said as he dropped down to Jess on the sand . Jess replied "No I'm not Mike won't leave me alone ." Nick stood up and said"Please leave and stop calling Jess a slut because she clearly isn't one , If you don't leave I will call the police and have them charge you with abuse." Mike just scowled and walked away Nick dropped down on his knees and hugged Jess , who now was crying uncontrollably but nick just said "Hey what he said isn't true at all you are not a slut , in anyway shape or form ok , now let's go to back to my house and eat dinner ," Jess smiled and stopped crying and said "Thanks Nick that means so much to me ." So they went to Nick's house to have dinner .
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Unsuspecting sunday afternoon
Chapter 1
Nick and Jess had now been friend for a few weeks.They would txt each other everyday and talk to each other about everything.They were growing closer and closer everyday.Instead of that sad look in jess' eyes he saw a happy and a peaceful look.Today Nick had to work on his solo album but Jess was invited by Nick to come with him while he was recording.So at 10am Nick and Jess entered the studio drinking coffee and chatting about Grid Iron. Nick's favorite team was the bulls same with jess , they both though last nights game was shocking though . The quarterback wasn't throwing properly. They were both interuppted by Aaron who was standing there in the studio. NIck had a look of surprise on his face when Aaron said "Suprise . I finished rcoding early so i took a week off to come vist you ." Nick ran up to Aaron and hugged him and said "Aaron this is my freind Jess, Jess meet Aaron." Aaron just admired Jess for a few second then said "Hi it's nice to finally meet you Nick was telling me about you a few days ago ." Jess just smiled and said "Thanks it's nice to meet you to Nick told me about your album you were recording. " Nick just said "Is it ok if I go record those songs i needed to finish today ?" Jess responded "Of course Nick , I'm sure Aaron doesn't mind and besides i need to make some calls to my sister if you don't mind ?" Aaron just looked at nick and nooded his head and said that he would talk to him later. Jess made her calls which took about an hour and rejoined Aaron and Nick ,who was almost finished recording.After an hour Nick had finally finished recording the lat songs and he left the studio exhausted . They had lunch at the little cafe that Nick liked to go to which was across from the beach.Once it was 3pm they decided to go to Nick's house and play mario kart . When they were on the rainbow road track (the hardest track) Nick kept running Aaron off the track and Aaron eventually ran Nick off the Track which Jess though was hilarious . Jess won the game of course because Nick and Aaron were both too busy running each other off the road to notice that they had both been beatn by Jess. Once Nick and Aaron had stopped whinging about Jess beating them they decide to have dinner. They decided on having salad and steaks , while they steaks were cooking Nick and Jess were hugging on the couch talking about previous relationships. Jess was telling Nick about when she was dating guys and she loved them to pieces but they just ended up using her for her friends or they just broke her heart by calling her names like fatty , porker and slut . Nick was horrified by this and pulled Jess into a big hug and said "those guys must have been crazy to use you and call you all those names , you are a amazing person and if they didn't love you back then that's their loss not your you deserve so much better." Jess looked up at Nick with tears in her eyes and said "thanks so much Nick that means alot to me . all those girls who used you were crazy you are an amazing guy and if they didn't see that then that's their loss." Nick just smiled and said "Thanks, that means alot to me ."
Nick and Jess had now been friend for a few weeks.They would txt each other everyday and talk to each other about everything.They were growing closer and closer everyday.Instead of that sad look in jess' eyes he saw a happy and a peaceful look.Today Nick had to work on his solo album but Jess was invited by Nick to come with him while he was recording.So at 10am Nick and Jess entered the studio drinking coffee and chatting about Grid Iron. Nick's favorite team was the bulls same with jess , they both though last nights game was shocking though . The quarterback wasn't throwing properly. They were both interuppted by Aaron who was standing there in the studio. NIck had a look of surprise on his face when Aaron said "Suprise . I finished rcoding early so i took a week off to come vist you ." Nick ran up to Aaron and hugged him and said "Aaron this is my freind Jess, Jess meet Aaron." Aaron just admired Jess for a few second then said "Hi it's nice to finally meet you Nick was telling me about you a few days ago ." Jess just smiled and said "Thanks it's nice to meet you to Nick told me about your album you were recording. " Nick just said "Is it ok if I go record those songs i needed to finish today ?" Jess responded "Of course Nick , I'm sure Aaron doesn't mind and besides i need to make some calls to my sister if you don't mind ?" Aaron just looked at nick and nooded his head and said that he would talk to him later. Jess made her calls which took about an hour and rejoined Aaron and Nick ,who was almost finished recording.After an hour Nick had finally finished recording the lat songs and he left the studio exhausted . They had lunch at the little cafe that Nick liked to go to which was across from the beach.Once it was 3pm they decided to go to Nick's house and play mario kart . When they were on the rainbow road track (the hardest track) Nick kept running Aaron off the track and Aaron eventually ran Nick off the Track which Jess though was hilarious . Jess won the game of course because Nick and Aaron were both too busy running each other off the road to notice that they had both been beatn by Jess. Once Nick and Aaron had stopped whinging about Jess beating them they decide to have dinner. They decided on having salad and steaks , while they steaks were cooking Nick and Jess were hugging on the couch talking about previous relationships. Jess was telling Nick about when she was dating guys and she loved them to pieces but they just ended up using her for her friends or they just broke her heart by calling her names like fatty , porker and slut . Nick was horrified by this and pulled Jess into a big hug and said "those guys must have been crazy to use you and call you all those names , you are a amazing person and if they didn't love you back then that's their loss not your you deserve so much better." Jess looked up at Nick with tears in her eyes and said "thanks so much Nick that means alot to me . all those girls who used you were crazy you are an amazing guy and if they didn't see that then that's their loss." Nick just smiled and said "Thanks, that means alot to me ."
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Unsuspecting sunday afternoon
Prolouge
It was Nick's birthday and there was only one thing he wanted ... He wanted what he couldn't have , a normal relationship . All the girls he dated seemed to use him for his money and for fame . Nick was starting to give up on love until one unsuspecting sunday afternoon...
Nick was sitting at a cafe near his house when he saw the most beautiful woman , she had long brownish-redish hair with brown eyes . She was about 5'10 or 5'11 and looked about 22 or 23, but there was one thing he was cautious about the hurt tht was showing in her eyes.Nick left a $10 dollars on the table to pay for his coffee and started to walk over to the beautiful woman.Once Nick had reached her he said "Hi , I'm Nick . I saw you from across the street , you looked realy sad . I couldn't hellp but come over here and introduce myself to you , What's your name ?"
She responded by saying ,"My name is Jessica but call me Jess . It's nice to meet you Nick, may i ask you a question are you one of the backstreet boys ?"
"Yes I am one of the backstreet boys , People are looking at us funny do you wanna go for a walk along the beach ?"
"Yeah I do " Jess said.
Nick and Jess talk for ages about anything and everthing , when it was time for them to go home the exhanged phone numbers and siad they'd txt each other later. Nick and Jess both had the feeling that this could be the start of a beautiful friendship, perhaps even more. But Nick knew Jess wasn't ready for that just yet ,They had to get to know each other better first.
It was Nick's birthday and there was only one thing he wanted ... He wanted what he couldn't have , a normal relationship . All the girls he dated seemed to use him for his money and for fame . Nick was starting to give up on love until one unsuspecting sunday afternoon...
Nick was sitting at a cafe near his house when he saw the most beautiful woman , she had long brownish-redish hair with brown eyes . She was about 5'10 or 5'11 and looked about 22 or 23, but there was one thing he was cautious about the hurt tht was showing in her eyes.Nick left a $10 dollars on the table to pay for his coffee and started to walk over to the beautiful woman.Once Nick had reached her he said "Hi , I'm Nick . I saw you from across the street , you looked realy sad . I couldn't hellp but come over here and introduce myself to you , What's your name ?"
She responded by saying ,"My name is Jessica but call me Jess . It's nice to meet you Nick, may i ask you a question are you one of the backstreet boys ?"
"Yes I am one of the backstreet boys , People are looking at us funny do you wanna go for a walk along the beach ?"
"Yeah I do " Jess said.
Nick and Jess talk for ages about anything and everthing , when it was time for them to go home the exhanged phone numbers and siad they'd txt each other later. Nick and Jess both had the feeling that this could be the start of a beautiful friendship, perhaps even more. But Nick knew Jess wasn't ready for that just yet ,They had to get to know each other better first.
No Way OutChapter 1
Natalia was more disorientated and confused than ever now, she had just woken up now there was something important today on today ahh yes her twentieth birthday yey . Now what are my presents she thought to her self , I know one wish I have and mmm is it good, gosh I am getting wet already just thinking about it. Mmm Nick carter naked having hot and steamy sex with her mmm more sex mmm. Anyway she thought to her self I know one of my presents is going to be the backstreet boys concerts tickets,( Natalia had already met Nick , Brian and AJ earlier that year while attending a charity ball). Nick and Natalia instantly hit it off anyway Nick was only one year older than her so that could mean something really good for her. Violet decided it was tome to get up and go have breakfast if there was anything decent at all to eat.Just as she thought was walking out to an empty house her parents , brother and sister had gone on a 8 day cruise earlier on that morning , as she had insisted on stay home as she had to work in her studio) she saw piecing blue eyes ,but no one except her was suppose to be home . She soon discovered that Nick was waiting for her inside to take her shopping and wish her a happy birthday. Natalia didn’t really feel like going out on her birthday she thought to herself maybe I should tell him what I really would like to do . Nick told her to get ready and to take a shower.
So she said “What mall are we going to?”
Nick only said “Don’t worry about that just get dressed.”
So Natalia starts to walk to her room but just as she was about to enter her bedroom she said “do you know what my birthday wish is?”
Nick only said “Just go get dressed will talk about this later or do I have to make you ?”
Natalia said “does that envolve physical contact ?”
Nick said “I think I know what your wish is ?”
Natalia said what is it then , mr know it all?”
Nick replied “Is you and me having sex ?”
Natalia said “Yeah , Maybe ,why?”
Nick said “Why you ask because I have been thinking about it as well.”
Natalia gasped in shock and said “Now that you know what I am thinking lets get it on then.”
Nick’s only reply was “Do you have any protection?”
Natalia just walked up to him and grabbed his pants and undid them ,once his pants and underwear were gone violet proceeded to lay down on the floor , only to have Nick lift her up and take Natalia to her bedroom ,by Natalia’s directions anyway.
Nick took off all Natalia’s clothes apart from her bra and matching panties . Swiftly Nick guided her onto the bed and laid her down gentle , tucking the brown strands of hair behind her ears. The look in his eyes said it all . By now Nick was hard and ready to go. Natalia just had one thing to say “Is it ok if we don’t tell anyone about this cause my parents will freak, even though I am twenty today”. Gosh she really was twenty today , the mere thought of that made her smile. She was suddenly snapped out of her own thoughts by nick saying “Natalia , Natalia earth to Natalia .”
“Sorry I was just thinking about my birthday and me officially being twenty today” Natalia said casually. Nick smiled and said “I remember when I turned twenty I was so glad that I was finally treated like a real adult by the guys (the other backstreet boys) , I couldn’t keep still.”
“Ok that must have been fun, not being respected but he guys until you were twenty, yeah that would have been awesome not.”
Nick replied sadly” yeah I wasn’t fun at all considering that I was the youngest person in the group. It was really depressing sometimes because they didn’t respect me as an adult or a grown up individual.” Nick sighed slowly after that
Just as nick had sighed she heard her Auntie Jacqueline walk through the door . Her parents insisted that she have her uptight smart alicke Aunt come over to their house and keep her company, more like baby-sit she thought.
“Crap!” was all she could say.
Nick just looked at her strangely then shrugged it off. While Natalia just sat silently assessing the situation and trying to come up with a solution to their problem, her Aunt burst through the door, she just stood there shocked to see Natalia almost naked .
Natalia Sharpsky, you slut get out of there this instant young lady her Aunt Jacqueline said bitterly mocking her presence, as if she should have never been born.. Natalia glanced knowingly at her Aunt and said “Whether I do or do not have sex is my business and my private life not yours!”
I am twenty years old not three, I am an adult I make my own decisions not you or anyone else. Now get out or I will call the police!” Violet stated coldly.
Your parents aren’t going to be happy when they find out about this Natalia Sarah Sharpsky!”
Well they aren’t going to find out about it are they Auntie may I remind you of the babysitting incident when I was 15,and you were 39 making love to your boyfriend right in front of me not caring at all that I was there. Not a really good example Auntie so take the log out of your eye before you attempt to take the speck out of my eye .
“Fine you little slut go fuck with your boy friend and get pregnant but don’t tell me I didn’t warn you .As for you young man , have fun using her and be sure to get her pregnant , so she can suffer.” nick just stood there motion-less until her Aunt’s car tires screeched down the drive way and to the end of the street. Nick looked at Violet and said “Are you ok is there anything that I should know that you haven’t told me about?”
Natalia said” No not really except that I am a virgin and I shouldn’t have sex before marriage.”
Nick asked quietly “is that because of your religious beliefs?”
Natalia said shyly, “Yeah … it is because.. of my religious beliefs. I am a Christian and I shouldn’t be in this situation.”
Nick answered , “We don’t have to have sex if you don’t want to or if you don’t feel comfortable with it. I am happy to wait until you feel ready.”
Natalia smiled and , “Ok then let’s take a shower and then get dressed , if you don’t mind that is .”
Nick said casually ,“ I don’t mind , so let’s go take a shower .”
Natalia yawned and said, “Let’s go then”
Nick asked when they were getting undressed, “Are you ok , you seem upset after the confrontation with your Aunt?”
Natalia replied tearfully, “Not really .Nick I’m not a slut am I ?”
Nick replied , “Most girls would jump me if I just said the word, you are nothing like them at all ok .Natalia , Natalia look at me I really mean it you are so different and unique from anyone else I have ever met , you intrigue me. The first day we met I knew you were different from every other girl I have ever met , the way your eyes seemed to sparkle when I talked made me want locked eyes with you forever and never stop.”
Natalia replied,” Thanks , do you have any condoms?”
Nick replied , “Umm… yeah… I think s-so. Why do you ask?”
Natalia replied , “Because I was wondering if you did just in case I wanted to jump you, which I really do right now. So Nick just fuck me now before I die a virgin .”
Nick asked , “Are you sure ? I don’t want to pressure you into sex, you can only give your virginity once .”
Natalia replied, “ Yes but isn’t there a certain thing missing . like something on my finger?”
Nick replied , “That’s what I was meaning to ask you , I love you Natalia and we’ve been friends for so long I don’t think I could do because I don’t want you to just be the person who you lost your virginity to I want to be the person you wake up to every morning , I want to be your husband .What I’m trying to say is Violet will you do me the honour of spending the rest of your life with me ?”
Natalia replied, “I love you to.”
Nick then asked ,” Natalia sharpsky will you do me the honour of being my wife , until death do us apart.”
Natalia was in tears of happiness by now and said ,”Yes I will, I love you.”
Nick pulled out a black velvet box from his jeans and opened it , revealing the priceless diamond ring and slowly Nick picked it up and slid it on Natalia’s finger. Then he kissed Natalia tenderly and pulled her in for a hug.
Violet said “I love you Nick.”
Nick said “I love you Natalia .”
Natalia smiled and looked deeply into Nick’s eyes and saw the love for her in his eyes.
Natalia was more disorientated and confused than ever now, she had just woken up now there was something important today on today ahh yes her twentieth birthday yey . Now what are my presents she thought to her self , I know one wish I have and mmm is it good, gosh I am getting wet already just thinking about it. Mmm Nick carter naked having hot and steamy sex with her mmm more sex mmm. Anyway she thought to her self I know one of my presents is going to be the backstreet boys concerts tickets,( Natalia had already met Nick , Brian and AJ earlier that year while attending a charity ball). Nick and Natalia instantly hit it off anyway Nick was only one year older than her so that could mean something really good for her. Violet decided it was tome to get up and go have breakfast if there was anything decent at all to eat.Just as she thought was walking out to an empty house her parents , brother and sister had gone on a 8 day cruise earlier on that morning , as she had insisted on stay home as she had to work in her studio) she saw piecing blue eyes ,but no one except her was suppose to be home . She soon discovered that Nick was waiting for her inside to take her shopping and wish her a happy birthday. Natalia didn’t really feel like going out on her birthday she thought to herself maybe I should tell him what I really would like to do . Nick told her to get ready and to take a shower.
So she said “What mall are we going to?”
Nick only said “Don’t worry about that just get dressed.”
So Natalia starts to walk to her room but just as she was about to enter her bedroom she said “do you know what my birthday wish is?”
Nick only said “Just go get dressed will talk about this later or do I have to make you ?”
Natalia said “does that envolve physical contact ?”
Nick said “I think I know what your wish is ?”
Natalia said what is it then , mr know it all?”
Nick replied “Is you and me having sex ?”
Natalia said “Yeah , Maybe ,why?”
Nick said “Why you ask because I have been thinking about it as well.”
Natalia gasped in shock and said “Now that you know what I am thinking lets get it on then.”
Nick’s only reply was “Do you have any protection?”
Natalia just walked up to him and grabbed his pants and undid them ,once his pants and underwear were gone violet proceeded to lay down on the floor , only to have Nick lift her up and take Natalia to her bedroom ,by Natalia’s directions anyway.
Nick took off all Natalia’s clothes apart from her bra and matching panties . Swiftly Nick guided her onto the bed and laid her down gentle , tucking the brown strands of hair behind her ears. The look in his eyes said it all . By now Nick was hard and ready to go. Natalia just had one thing to say “Is it ok if we don’t tell anyone about this cause my parents will freak, even though I am twenty today”. Gosh she really was twenty today , the mere thought of that made her smile. She was suddenly snapped out of her own thoughts by nick saying “Natalia , Natalia earth to Natalia .”
“Sorry I was just thinking about my birthday and me officially being twenty today” Natalia said casually. Nick smiled and said “I remember when I turned twenty I was so glad that I was finally treated like a real adult by the guys (the other backstreet boys) , I couldn’t keep still.”
“Ok that must have been fun, not being respected but he guys until you were twenty, yeah that would have been awesome not.”
Nick replied sadly” yeah I wasn’t fun at all considering that I was the youngest person in the group. It was really depressing sometimes because they didn’t respect me as an adult or a grown up individual.” Nick sighed slowly after that
Just as nick had sighed she heard her Auntie Jacqueline walk through the door . Her parents insisted that she have her uptight smart alicke Aunt come over to their house and keep her company, more like baby-sit she thought.
“Crap!” was all she could say.
Nick just looked at her strangely then shrugged it off. While Natalia just sat silently assessing the situation and trying to come up with a solution to their problem, her Aunt burst through the door, she just stood there shocked to see Natalia almost naked .
Natalia Sharpsky, you slut get out of there this instant young lady her Aunt Jacqueline said bitterly mocking her presence, as if she should have never been born.. Natalia glanced knowingly at her Aunt and said “Whether I do or do not have sex is my business and my private life not yours!”
I am twenty years old not three, I am an adult I make my own decisions not you or anyone else. Now get out or I will call the police!” Violet stated coldly.
Your parents aren’t going to be happy when they find out about this Natalia Sarah Sharpsky!”
Well they aren’t going to find out about it are they Auntie may I remind you of the babysitting incident when I was 15,and you were 39 making love to your boyfriend right in front of me not caring at all that I was there. Not a really good example Auntie so take the log out of your eye before you attempt to take the speck out of my eye .
“Fine you little slut go fuck with your boy friend and get pregnant but don’t tell me I didn’t warn you .As for you young man , have fun using her and be sure to get her pregnant , so she can suffer.” nick just stood there motion-less until her Aunt’s car tires screeched down the drive way and to the end of the street. Nick looked at Violet and said “Are you ok is there anything that I should know that you haven’t told me about?”
Natalia said” No not really except that I am a virgin and I shouldn’t have sex before marriage.”
Nick asked quietly “is that because of your religious beliefs?”
Natalia said shyly, “Yeah … it is because.. of my religious beliefs. I am a Christian and I shouldn’t be in this situation.”
Nick answered , “We don’t have to have sex if you don’t want to or if you don’t feel comfortable with it. I am happy to wait until you feel ready.”
Natalia smiled and , “Ok then let’s take a shower and then get dressed , if you don’t mind that is .”
Nick said casually ,“ I don’t mind , so let’s go take a shower .”
Natalia yawned and said, “Let’s go then”
Nick asked when they were getting undressed, “Are you ok , you seem upset after the confrontation with your Aunt?”
Natalia replied tearfully, “Not really .Nick I’m not a slut am I ?”
Nick replied , “Most girls would jump me if I just said the word, you are nothing like them at all ok .Natalia , Natalia look at me I really mean it you are so different and unique from anyone else I have ever met , you intrigue me. The first day we met I knew you were different from every other girl I have ever met , the way your eyes seemed to sparkle when I talked made me want locked eyes with you forever and never stop.”
Natalia replied,” Thanks , do you have any condoms?”
Nick replied , “Umm… yeah… I think s-so. Why do you ask?”
Natalia replied , “Because I was wondering if you did just in case I wanted to jump you, which I really do right now. So Nick just fuck me now before I die a virgin .”
Nick asked , “Are you sure ? I don’t want to pressure you into sex, you can only give your virginity once .”
Natalia replied, “ Yes but isn’t there a certain thing missing . like something on my finger?”
Nick replied , “That’s what I was meaning to ask you , I love you Natalia and we’ve been friends for so long I don’t think I could do because I don’t want you to just be the person who you lost your virginity to I want to be the person you wake up to every morning , I want to be your husband .What I’m trying to say is Violet will you do me the honour of spending the rest of your life with me ?”
Natalia replied, “I love you to.”
Nick then asked ,” Natalia sharpsky will you do me the honour of being my wife , until death do us apart.”
Natalia was in tears of happiness by now and said ,”Yes I will, I love you.”
Nick pulled out a black velvet box from his jeans and opened it , revealing the priceless diamond ring and slowly Nick picked it up and slid it on Natalia’s finger. Then he kissed Natalia tenderly and pulled her in for a hug.
Violet said “I love you Nick.”
Nick said “I love you Natalia .”
Natalia smiled and looked deeply into Nick’s eyes and saw the love for her in his eyes.
No way out Prolouge
No way out by Hannah
Prologue
"Out she cried!"
This was the end of their relationship.
The whole plot begins with natalia a 19 year old teenager.
One day coming home from college in the car she was feeling more alone than ever. Violet Sharpsky was thinking about killing her self but something always held her back like a friend or God. This time was different there is no way out .Earlier that week Violet had an argument about air conditioning and that the powerbill was over $500 .Sometimes violet didn?t know what to she would just get on the Backstreet boys.Violet?s favourite Backstreet boy was Nick Carter she thought that he was cute and really sweet but really deep inside she just wished to be loved by someone . Her parents always told her she was loved but hey had a funny way of showing it sometimes .Her father would make fun of her or call her fat, this would result in her crying her eyes out and eating her emotions . Violet thought through eating food it would make her feel better but I really didn?t most of the time it just made her feel even more fat . Some days she just cried herself to sleep because the pain hurt so mush she couldn?t take it anymore she would just lose it .She would cry out to God for help but even then she still had to face the hard times .One incident she remembers was when a student at Jamestown Christian College slammed her head in the door . She didn?t take much notice of it at first but then she thought to tell her mum about it .The student who did this got in trouble and had to go to the principal?s office as well as Natalia. The student in the end was punished severely but wasn?t expelled. This was a great disappointment to her as she wanted to never see him again.
Back to the present natalia felt like her opion didn?t matter , she felt like she didn?t matter at all her parents always seemed to yell a her instead of her brothers and sisters , she always seemed to be the one who was blamed for every single thing .Violet was sick of all this hurt and what seemed like hatred towards her ( just as she was typing how ahe felt on her myspace blog the song hot n cold by Katy perry came in her head ) wow that summed up her relationship about her and all her friends and her family(parents , brother and sister).Someone call the doctor got a case of love bipolar, stuck on a rollercoaster can?t get off this ride , she was sick of al these things around her happening .
One night while her parents and her brothers and sisters were out she was tossing up whether to kill herself or run away? She thought she couldn?t kill herself but she couldn?t run away either. What was she going to do? Then she thought to herself maybe I should just move out .
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